i feel so guilty... :(

yesterday went to VCH for band thing
i play until very lousy
i like got stage fright
i cannot blow out of the clarinet
and felt nervous somemore i squead
then was like shocked
after that went back school and went to eat with my seniors and shi qi
then while talking i don know why i hit until the spoon then it just drop
on the floor and it breaks
i did not did it in purpose really is accidentally
but then that stallholder never ask me pay
so i never pay
but still feel a bit guilty
after that went back for woodwinds combined
after that went to lot 1 after that went to BPP
with my sis
actually wanted to buy pants and sgirts but cannot find any
so never buy
and also have not decided what to wear to the class outting
hhahaha